I've finally decided that I want to update my diary. So many things have happened these past few days and I feel like I really need to release all the stress that is inside me. Whoever who says that loving somebody is total bliss is b*lls**ting.

In every relationship, theres bound to be difference. I saw that in most of my friends. Take ZS and JY for example. Shes always giving in to him even though it is not her fault, why? I know she is trying hard to make their relationship work, but is it worth it? I think he doesn't even care much about her. And in the end, when they argue...all of us gets the cold treatment from her. If u ever read this, is it worth it?

I'm so confused right now. What relation do I have with him? Are we friends, good friends ar more than that? From that things we speak about, I think we may be more than friends, but action wise, we might as well be strangers. I have so many questions to ask, but do I dare to ask them? I want to be bold and spill everything in my heart, but will that make me lose what I have or maybe help me gain more than I can think of? Its very confusing, sometimes, I really wish that we could have a heart to heart talk about everything.No holding back anything. But I guess it will never happen. Everything seems to be slipping away from me. My grades, hopes, and almost everything around me. Don't ever think that my life is as perfect as it seems, there are many doubts and questions without answers....will someone answer them for me?

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