Thursday, Nov. 13, 2003, 12:11 p.m.

Shit Shit Shit...I lost my handphone, my HANDPHONE!...Argh, me maid says I dropped it and someone picked it up without the intention of giving it back. Like what bad things have I done to punish me like this? Nothing, absolutely NOTHING!!! OR maybe its in exchange for something like seeing Nick. Nah, its stupid, but how I wish I can find it or me mom is soooo gonna kill me. I cant find it since morning, then after school I saw Nick, maybe its an exchange. Well, it just suck!

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Wednesday, Nov. 12, 2003, 8:20 p.m.

I think I have not been updating for soo long. As usual went for extra lessons in the morning, today was add-math. Was soo long, from 8 to 11 am?...about that i think. After that went bowling with Josh, Pius, Veron and Derek. I think its my best performance yet though the score were not that good. I can now proudly and officially say that I am a spinner. Why?, my balls spin not roll. lolx, half my dream is coming through, the other half is becoming a hook player. Pius and I had almost the same scores throughout the two games that we had, Josh was leading mostly, Derek was by chance by chance, then Veron took the last place cuz of her hand that have not fully healed. So fun manz, I wanna go bowl again but can we please not go to grassroot?...cuz I think the lanes they are quite weird, but it seems to be the place I play most consistently...hmm, depends. Didn't know Derek was not tt good, he used to win me last time but now, heehee...I'm winning. Josh is a pro man, but the way he does it like erm...dunno how to describe. The the Pius does it is, his head just stays there for a while when his ball goes down the lane. I wanna do it again...more bowling. I want MORE, more, MORE!!!

lolx. After that they came to my house, ate spaghetti then played on the comp. The guys kept hogging the comp playing gunbound, then me and Veron went to watch tv and ended up watching Bringing Down The House. That show is quite boring, then I went to look at them play then I signed in to MSN at the other comp. For some reasons, they started talk ing to random people and they sorta spoke loads of nonsense, then Pius's bro came. He is like, the cuuuttteeeesssttt kid ever. HE is so cute, but he's kinda scared of me. HE wont talk to me or even look at me when I talk to him. He actually went to the bathroom to hide. I just maybe screamed at Derek a little louder than normal, so maybe he;s sorta scared because of that?...dunno, but Josh DID cover his ears tho. Then I wanted to take his pic with me digicam, but he kept running and I chased him round my house and I cant take a pic of him but I still did took a pic of him, but it was a long time after, when he talked to me, then he also took pics of me...hahahaha, he is soo cute and sooo fun. Then for some reasons, I went sorta bonkers and took pics of all of our hair from the top. I'm really weird I think...We!rD! Me dad came home then we played a little while more then they went home. Bathed, eat dinner, watched Tv then played gunbound with them, lolx I had a knight again. My second knight baby! HeeHee...its getting more and more interesting. Think I'm gonna continue playing gunbound for the time being. See ya :D

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Monday, Nov. 10, 2003, 10:03 p.m.

Just watched the Ch8 9 o'clock show and I suddenly feel so sad and deprived. I watch the show and see Haiyang, HaiTao and HaiXing and I think of myself. Know why? Cuz I think a mix of the three brothers best points would make the best boyfriend ever. Nick's cuteness, Edmund's sensitivity and HanWei's maturity. Not to mention Edmund's shoulder to cry on and his hugs look so nice. Sigh, I'm really so deprived. Seriously, I need to get a life.

How I wish in realy life, guys are really like them. Maybe there are but I just never did have any luck or chance to meet them. Even if I did, so what, they'll never take a second look at me. Sigh. Darn this show, I love it yet I hate it. Made me so happy yet so sad. It reminds me of the times a few months ago, and the things we never did or I never did for him...nevermind. But how I wish I can relive it again, I'll deff do everything I can to make it work instead of being like tt idiot who thinks I'm always rite. I suck, I truly suck. I just realized I'm wrong. Seriously wrong. Damn, I feel the tears coming. Its been such a lng time and I'm still weeping over it? Good or bad I still do. Am I crazy or what or just plain obsessed. Its a question I'll never have the answer to. Unless someone is willing to give me the answer. Everything I want came through, so can't it happen again?... What I want is something that I used to have, can I ever have it back again?

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Sunday, Nov. 09, 2003, 10:33 p.m.

hmm, where was I yesterday. Ok lunch. Lunch was this meal comprising of thai dishes...hahah, still love it so much. I decided, besides Jap food, the other food I like is thai food. Lol. Went to army market after that. Me sis bought a whistle, poncho and something else for her camp. Then we both the pair of adidas shoes that everyone has. Ok, so its common, but at least I got mine in holographic purple, ya know, the one that changes color when u see from different angles?...yeah, I'm wearing it on friday. After army market, we went to IMM. Went to the $2 shop, everything was going at 2 bicks, some things were just sooo cheap man. I bought a belt, 2 new nail colors, a deco for my plants,soba noodles, fishbowl for my yet-to-be-bought fish me mom also bought some eyeshadow. I told her I wanted to play with it and she actually bought it. haha, then we went to giant to buy some foos, a chicken, suasage rolls, chicken pies and some other i forgot. Then when we walked past the nail section somewhere, the auntie said something about nail stickers then she put 1 on my pinkie nail. Its so pretty! Then walked around the first level after billing and bought some pies and fruit punch to eat and drink. Then I saw ShiMin when we were at the carpark.

Reached home then ate the chicken and stuff, some instant noodles also, then went online. Haha, Muqsit is such a loser, he can't even outtalk me...imagine, ME, ME!!! who dont really speak much. hahaha, then he called me smelly cuz I haven't bath and it was like what, 10+?...not too late rite, but anyway, he's cool and somewhat funny or cute. And its not what you all think it is, esp Veron and Joce. Remember, Veron is her "sayang"..haha. And Veron, atually i send the pictures. But i know you wont read my blog , so u cant get me. hahaha...score 1 for me?...lolx

Oh yeah, that scoring thing came about when me and muqsit were outtalking each other. haha, then played again this mornign and I won again. This tim e we were speaking like yoda and he still lost. And he claimed to be a Star Wars fan. hahaha, as if, MuqMuq. haha, ciaoz

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Saturday, Nov. 08, 2003, 11:24 p.m.

just finish bathing. Went out the whole day today. Went to the dentist, then to Golden Mile something, then Army market, then IMM. Finally had my mould and cast for the braces done today. I'm gonna be a metal mouth!!! It was fun doing the mould and cast thingie, first the dentist stuck some jelly like thing into my mouth, then had to wait for a while and it became sorts rubbery and stuff, then he pulls it out. But its quite sticky and stuck to my teeth, I was actually afraid that my teeth would come out together with the mould. lol. Also took an X-ray, then when he was showing me and my mom the X-ray, he talked about everything he saw on it. At first he talked about my 4 wisdom tooth and that they were correctly align and that besides those for teeth,all the rest are out of alignment(yah, i know, my teeth are horrible), then he went on about my ear stud, then my nasal pasage. He said one of my nasal passage was block and I can clear it by scraping part of my nose bone. Ouch, it hurt listening to it. haha, but whats a dentist donig telling me about my nose?After the dental apointment, we went to Golden Mile something to have lunch. Soo delicious. It was a thai meal, manz, really delicious!

Argh, I cant stand it, I'm gong to sleep now. I'll just continue tomorrow. Sweet dreams.

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Friday, Nov. 07, 2003, 11:27 a.m.

Haven't been updating lately. ITs no fun having this blog anymore. The designs are simple, and it doesn;t talk back to me. It doesn;t share my laughter nor my sorrow, so maybe I'll stop having this thing, or maybe change it to a more happy form? who knows what is going to happen to this. I'm getting bored of it...

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Tuesday, Nov. 04, 2003, 3:17 p.m.

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Monday, Nov. 03, 2003, 8:07 p.m.

Today's the first day of the school holidays. Went back to school in the morning for extra lessons to prepare us for the Os next year. Serious waste of time I think. The teacher for the first period never came and the second period teacher might as well not come. She was talking to herself, no one was listening and she kept on going on and on and on. Her lessons were boring and there were no notes for us. How I wish it was still Mrs Fong teaching us, or even Ms Quek might be better. I'm just afraid theres no more hope for my bio if this goes on.

Went for lunch after that, and for some reasons, I kept laughing. Maybe its because of Veron's hand or something. Its was just a hilarious day. Reached home and played gunbound all the way to six. Its such a fun game, also a way to meet some new people. Theres like so many people playing it, even played with a guy who lived near me, haha, such a coincidence.

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Sunday, Nov. 02, 2003, 11:02 p.m.

Do you need a boy/girl friend now?

Thats like so true of me. I know I'll change when I have tt someone. You guys(the gang) just seem to be a small part of my life when it happens right. The quiz is just so true. Seriously must try to change myself.

Are you easily stressed? This is also quite correct to some extend, only i can't really balance my time.
Which [Rainbow Colours] are you?
Are You Naughty or Nice? Maybe...;P

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Sunday, Nov. 02, 2003, 6:20 p.m.

Went to have lunch just now. Went to the teachew porridge place where Nick Shen shot the tv series. Haha, my guess was so right! The food was yummy, but we went too late to have their speciality meatballs. Went to NTUC and some plant garden after that. Saw strawberry plants there so my sis and I decided to try plant them. My mom allowed so we went to get the seeds. Cant find strawberry seeds so instead I got Basil seeds and my sis gpot coriander seeds. We were quite dumb I think, cuz we were shaking the packets containing the seeds and asking each other if it sounds healthy. We shook many packets, and it all sounded different. lolx. Then we went to buy dinner, chilli crabs and beehon and hor fun. Oh yeah and saw Ms Quek at "Ang Mo" when I was at the market.

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Sunday, Nov. 02, 2003, 11:15 a.m.

Just finished bathing, and the smell I'm emitting reminds me so much of Nick. Not that he smells like raspberries or anything, haha that would be so funny. But because it reminds me of the time when I went so crazy for him. I purposely used this body soap so that he would maybe get a whiff of it so he would know that I'm alive. Yah, I know I'm pathetic, trying to get his attention at that time like that. But either his nose is blocked or something, he does not smell it, but u people(my friends) says it is too sweet, but admit it, it really smells nice.

Never blog yesterday cuz I slept all the way till dinner time after I came back from my sch's open house. I think it was a huge disaster. Little people came and the booths/classrooms were so far apart some did not even have visotors. The school is really so brainless. They should have situated everything together, so that it would be more cosy and exciting. More people would come too. Sigh, what can you get from this kinda lousy school, lousy teachers and brains thats what. Yeah and Veron got bitten by her dog, so painful! *Ouch* Looked really painful to me, and she said she cried. I can;t imagine it, if she could cry, then what would I do if it had been me. I think my eyes would probably be swollen from crying and I would have wanted to go to hospital to stay for observation. I know I'm chicken, but I'm afraid of pain, I can't stand it.

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Saturday, Nov. 01, 2003, 12:20 a.m.

Last day of the term today. Got back my report book and the results very damn bad. Only 1 A and it was an A2, the rest were Bs and a C. Such sucky results and I actually got 1st in class, this'll show what a lousy class I am in. Also got our holiday homework list today. Not too much I think. Love the english movie review bit, an excuse to go watch movies, I'm gonna do Uptown Girls for it, I think its gonna be a great show. Hmm,the rest are mosly A and E math, and I think thats about it. Pretty easy holiday for us, but I think the extra lessons will probably have loads of them, so it'll all balance out in the end.

Went to have lunch with Chantel after school, then went back to school to ask Lua something and rushed back to bath. Went to Suntec with Chantel after that for her CEO competition thingie, I was so darn bored there. I walked round to look at the exhibits, read the brochures, took a nap, drank coffee, ate a piece of carrot cake and blueberry muffin and listen to the radio. A total of about 3 1/2 hrs wasted. She was the best in that competition, so congrats to her. After that, we went to town to look for Derek cuz of his S.H.E album stamping thingie. Found him and also saw Chantel's cousin there. He said he'll wait there for us, so Chantel and I went to Heeren to take neos, and also to buy candy. That machine was so good, the time is not very quick and rushed, so we took some really wacky pictures, I love them. After that, we went back to find Derek. Damn, the place was so crowded and it was starting to drizzle. Had to squeeze with sooooo many people just for some stupid stamps on the album cover, not very worth it I think. Then got pushed by so many people and they stink so badly I think I might just faint it took place in an aircon room. Got the stamps after a long long long long and very tiring wait. Derek you owe me a BIG one! Went to eat after that, then decided to go cosmic bowling. Was quite late I think, about 11 or 10.45 when we reached Cine. Found out that cosmic bowling was only on saturdays so wanted to go home. Got down at the wrong floor so we took the escalator and walked around. Saw Rachel's video on the tv there. Haha, she's such a porn star. After that we went home. So tiring day manz, gonna sleep now...niteX, ciao!

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Thursday, Oct. 30, 2003, 10:47 p.m.

Hmm, pon school again today. Woke up at 12 noon. Such a pig I'm becoming. Getting my report book back tomorrow. Still haven't told my mom all my results, sigh also never tell her my class position yet...nothing much to blog now. Toodles

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Wednesday, Oct. 29, 2003, 10:49 p.m.

Went for the Battlefield tur today. Its quite fun, unlike what Joce and Veron said. Had fun, esp at the battle box scaring them with talks that people died there before and we are walking on places where people died before. Haha, seriously its not that scary. Its not even scary compared to the people who opened the battle box right? They'll see the decomposed corpse and the blood, not to mention the smell and the creep crawlies there and not forgotting the heat too. Hahaha, but its all fun. Suddenly interested in becoming an archeologist or a curator. It'll be fun digging up graves and hidden places in search for treasure, corpse and history. Maybe I'll just make that into my career, and work towards it now. But its still too early to decide. Blog tml, see ya

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Tuesday, Oct. 28, 2003, 10:18 p.m.

Just remembered, I got back my results yesterday. Quite satisfactory, but not as good as I want them. Maybe 10 more marks for F&N and bio each. 20 more marks for A maths would also be great. Lets just hope my percentage overall will be good, if not, my mom's gonna kill me. Actually, to be honest, I think my results sucked. Haven't told my mom yet, only my father knows. He talked about my bad results for quite a while. Said I could have done better if I had read the books he asked me to and practice more for my math. But he said I improved in my maths!...haha, he said I can do better if I work harder...maybe. The result I'm most happy with is chinese. I never copied or done anything like that. Just plain hard work and memorising my stuff and encouraging from Chen Lao Shi. So I wanna thank him soooo soooo much. If not my chinese would have no hope. THANK YOU!!!

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Tuesday, Oct. 28, 2003, 12:33 p.m.

Just found out, I'm not the only one skipping school today. Many others also did, about 7 I heard. Tsk Tsk, bad class we are. Hahahaha...

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Tuesday, Oct. 28, 2003, 11:33 a.m.

Its 11+ am now and I am supossed to be in school. But here I am typing all these, which means I'm skipping school. But, hehe, teachers can;t do anything to me, cuz I have an MC. Yay!. Poor Derek, have to think of how he is going to tell his teacher. Chantel also never went to school, cuz she is sick too....

Woke up at about 10.30 today. Then Joce SMSed me and said the heritage tour is boring, maybe I'll decide to skip that too tomorrow. We'll see...

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Sunday, Oct. 26, 2003, 9:29 p.m.

Hmm, I was lazy today. Woken up by an SMS, hehe, love that person who sent it. lolx. Washed my face and blew my nose. I cant imagine the amount of mucus my nose can store. I kept blowing and blowing but it felt so good to rid my nose of them. Throughout the day, I just kept blowing my nose, till my mom gave me this drink and the flu panadol. That drink is quite nice, sweet but with a hint of bitterness. After drinking it, went to have a nap. I seem to be sleeping the day today, but it made me feel so much better :D. By the time I woke up, it was evening time. Watch some dumb show "Baby Geniuses", such a stupid show, I don;t really get they are trying to convey. Anywayz, after that, had dinner and here I am blogging after dinner. Gonna bath now...CiAoZzZzz

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Sunday, Oct. 26, 2003, 9:47 a.m.

Argh, I'm so sick. I have flu, cough, running nose, block nose and sore throat. Is this what you get for not being sick in such a long time?...then I'd rather be sick constantly...argh!

Went to Aunty Noha's house yesterday. Tried Uncle Bob's cooking. He cooked Char Kwey Tiao, quite yummy but I can't really enjoy it. The amount of chilli in there tickles my throat so much and the huge amoutn of beansprouts *shudders*. I was picking them out insead of eating my noodles...and drank some liqour too. Love it so much, cuz its coffee based. Bailey and Kahlau are the best, try it someday k? Hmm, then had some chicken wings after the kwey tiao, only one word to descride it, delicious! Uncle Bob cooked that too. But as usual, I don't eat the skin but Naim finished it all for me. haha, its like, I eat the meat, he eats the skin. Hes the best eating partner for me. Everything I don't want or don't like, he finishes them off. Then we watched "zhen Qing", terrible time man, I was blowing my nose and wiping the tears, but not from the show, cuz of my flu. AHHHH!!!!I hate flu! Then Naim was like, "you also cry when you watch this show, like my mommy." haha, how can he expose his mother's secret???...lolx. After the show, we went to White Sands, first we went to John Little. We were looking around at the clothings, the my mom and Aunty Noha saw bras on sale, then ask me to try. But I don't those kind that has pattern or frilly kind, then I said if I wear those kind then the pattern can be seen, then my mom pulled my shirt around me and ask, "can it be seen?". Gosh, and the only person there is Naim, so embarassing man. Thank God he said "no comment". But it still is embarassing. After that I bought some ear sticks, hair clips and a necklace, then we went for dinner at the food court. Saw Joanne, RuiBing, Yew Lok and another guy, but I don't know his name. Joanne actually said "Hi", I was quite surprised. Then got my food, eat, bought drinks, drank it. Then after that me and my mom took a cab home. Came home, watched Westside story. Damn, me sis is so obsessed with Tony. She is so smitte nwith him, she actually gushes on and on about him and how cool he is when doing those stunts. My sister is crazy.

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Friday, Oct. 24, 2003, 11:29 p.m.

I just realized that I am obsessed. Way beyond likeing something or even loving. Just obsessed. Psychotic obsession is what I call it. I need help so badly. And I need it soon.

Dang, I actually went to look for a picture of that darn stupid ball. how idiotic can I get. I'm so dissapointed in myself. After everything that I have tried, he's still in my mind. All my friends that says I will not be able to get over it, well, maybe you all are right. I'm a psychotic stalker I think.

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Friday, Oct. 24, 2003, 10:26 p.m.

Hi, so long nv update. Now I'm back!...hehe. Went to Jurong Point today with the usual people minus Pius and Linwan. Mostly just walked around, look see look see, but had a lot of fun. Saw some things that I like, maybe I'll ask my mom to go back with me to buy them. Min and Kum left halfway after we ate and Long John. Love the fries at Long John, they just taste so yummy. After Jurong Point, some of us went to Causeway Point. Josh and Rina wanted to go back first, so they went home.

Now there's only Esther, Veron, Joce, Derek and Me left. Walked around, we actually wanted to go to the "pasar malam" there, but we went in to go to the toilet. After that we went to Metro. We were supposed to help Derek to find a prezzie for his neice, but we ended up looking at clothes. We were having some fun trying on visors and beanies. We looked stupid! haha. After that, we went to the toy section and man did we have a whale of a time, or maybe I had the most fun there. All the toys there reminded me of my childhood. We were all reminiscing about our childhood. I looked at all the toys and I literally lit up. They said I was glowing and smiling so broadly as I looked at all the toys there. But I don't know how I looked, so oh well. But the thing I know was, I really was so excited and happy remembering stuff that happened when I was younger(not that I am very old!). Those were the best memories that I could ever have and the toys I had were my fave things in the whole wide world. And I think I could remember all my childhood friends that I used to play, had tuition and chatted on the phone with(yes, I loved talking at the phone at a young age!)Let me try to list them. Selena, Sean(Hong Yi), Xi Wen, Sim Yee, Felicia, Beatrice, Mei Hui, Naim, my sister..I think thats about it. Its sad, I only am friends with a few of them now, Beatrice, Naim, and my sister. Maybe I could still get into contact with some other cuz they're mostly my mom's friend's children, but I think we drifted from each other so much. And to think that Sean is in that school and is now a six footer. My mom just told me that that day and he used to be such a scrawny kid. Sigh, all my memories, it suddenly made me want to tell all my friends and people that I know and cherish that I love them all and will never forget them. You have all made a difference in my life and it will be memories that will be with me for as long as I live. Love you all lots!!! XoXo.

"I always knew I'd laugh about the times I cried, but, who knew I'd cry about the times I laughed."

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Thursday, Oct. 23, 2003, 12:06 p.m.

yepz, its confirmed. I am sick, after a year or 2 from non-sickness. I have a 38.2 degrees fever. Hehe, but I'm still going out. Shhhh, keep this from my mother, if not she'll not allow me o go out tml.Told me maid to keep mum about it too aleady. See Ya

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Thursday, Oct. 23, 2003, 9:05 a.m.

Ooo, I feel sick. Maybe I'm coming down with something. I don't know. I just feel sick. and hot. and cold. Whatever it may be, I don't wanna get sore throat, if not no more talking for me....

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Wednesday, Oct. 22, 2003, 9:50 p.m.

Just remembered something. When we were going home today, Min told Gong Chi "ni de la lian mei..." haha she wanted to say his bag was not zipped, then she forgot and said tt. Man I was like laughing/giggling all the way on the bus. The best part, Gong Chi took the same bus as us...lolz

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Wednesday, Oct. 22, 2003, 5:57 p.m.

No school tomorrow, so I think I'll be sleeping a little later than usual tonight. Going swimming tomorrow, then going to somewhere else later in the day.Today had hip-hop dance lesson, skin talk and CME test today. The dance lesson was quite fun, skin talk was so-so, and the CME test was not fun but neither is it boring. What am I talking about. Nothing much to talk about school today.
After school, Min wanted to cut her hair, so we went to that shop, "The Showcase". Saw many people, so I suggested to go eat first, then I persuaded her to buy back and eat so I can bath first. Haha, she was so good, she said yes. Then bought back, ate, watch TV, bath then went there. Sat in the saloon for such a long time. The hairdresser was cutting, thn washing Min's hair. I think the hairdresser is maybe a newbie or something. When she first put shampoo on her hair, a glob of it fell on Min's blouse. Then while she was washing, the foam flew on her blouse. Used a huge amount of shampoo just for soaping her hair, does her hair need so much???...weird. Then another hairdresser recommended some product, I also tried some on. As usual, they keep saying good things about their saloon...sianz. They really must understand that people get bored with small talk. After she finish cutting, which was so good I love her hair now, we went to buy bread then bought 2 guppies, a.k.a husbands for my other guppies. lolz. anyway, decided to name them G1 and G2, as like the Bananas in Pajamas. Guppy 1 and guppy 2. When I reached home, mom and grandma already came back from Thailand. Bought so many things, and loads of food. So cute the things they bought. I wanna go next time, and I wanna go shopping in Hong Kong. Next time perhaps...

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Monday, Oct. 20, 2003, 10:47 p.m.

Woke up quite early today. No school, so went to market to have a haircut. Wanted to go to my usual one, but wasn't open, so tried a new saloon. The cutting's quite good, but the hairstylist just talks too much. Yakking and yakking, then keep advertising her saloon. B-O-R-I-N-G. After that came home, bathed, then Min came over. Haha, had a fun time. We did some "treatment" to our hair. How funny we looked with out hair up in a towel and with a shower cap. Haha, like dorks maybe?...then we washed our hair. Then when Min was coming out of the room, I walked in. Then BAM! we banged each other so hard cuz we we in such a rush. We were late meeting Earth. Haha, so funny, the we laughed and laughed...

Then met Earth at bishan station, then go to Orchard station to meet the rest. Only Huiling was there, slowly followed by Joce, then Debbie. Went to a shop at wisma, but then the pericing cost is from $40. Too ex for us, so we went to Heeren. Walked around then found the cheap shop. $3.90 only, so gave it a try. At first I was saying its not pain, in the end I was so scared of the pain. But I still peirced, only one side tho. And it was after Min and also grabbing Joce's hand. But its all good in the end, but Earth, next time, be prepared. Haha, not going into details. Then walked around, eat, walked around again. The Debbie and Huiling went home. Then we walked around again, then took neoprints, then went home. Me and min went to buy food, then took bus home.

Hehe...happy day, was chatting with some people. Didn't know they were so nice and fun to chat with. Never would I ever thought that we would have anything to talk about. But oh well, its all good. Then chatted with him again. He went to town today too, why never see him. Saw someone from his school, but not him...(-_-') why like tt??? Anyway, I'm going to sleep now...ZzZzz

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Sunday, Oct. 19, 2003, 9:28 p.m.

Let me recap things that happened today. Lets see, woke up at 8+, brush teeth blah blah blah. Then ate breakfast, watched some TV, cooked up a disaster, send mom and grandma off then rotted at home. I'm bored. Nothing to do, so went to Sun Plaza and to town with aunt and maid. Damn embarassing to be go shopping with me maid. Talk so loud, then she like "sua ku" like that, everything to her is like "SO expensive". Then she has to keep reminding me that my wallet is with me aunt and I cant buy anything. Me aunt was at HMV, then me maid and I was walking around Heeren. Oh and reminds me,[minz] I saw Rachel's single at HMV. Tried tp call u but ur phone was not on, then I called your house, then ur bro said you wentshopping. So can't contact u, but its not my fault:P. I was at Flash and Splash looking at the bags, then saw a girl which I think is Sherri and some other people. I think he's Julius if I'm not wrong. Saw some pictures of them that day. If it is them...didn't know they were not that tall. Maybe it got into my head that people from MSH bowling would be tall, but not always the case yah. Anywayz, went to OG after Heeren, manz, there everything like so "aunty". The only section was like the OP area, but then I never explore the higher levels, just the ground and basement level. Then was about to go home when I saw Joycelyn(not Lin) fropm tuition. She saw me also, then we like kinda act dao to each other, but that always happens. Anywayz, came back to bishan, then me aunt went to buy waffles. I bought chocolate flavored ones, quite yummy. Then went to NTUC, bought some stuff, forgot what already then came home. Bath. Eat dinner. Watched TV, then came here to blog. Thats my day. Boring yeah.

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Saturday, Oct. 18, 2003, 11:23 p.m.

Last night I just wanted to have fun To go out with my friends I took my dad's car I never thought he would find out But I crashed in a wall Man I'm dead I guess it's no use I'm screwing up ever little thing I ever try to do I was born to lose

Yeah yeah yeah yeah God must hate me He cursed me for eternity God must hate me Maybe you should pray for me I'm breaking down and you can't save meI'm stuck in hell And I wanna go home Last night I had to study for this test

I forgot man I'm dead And now my brain is bursting out of my head I can't think I can't breathe Once again So what in the world am I supposed to doI never did anything to you So can't you find something else to doGod must hate me I wanna go home

This is not supossed to be anti God. Its just a little like me right now. Everything's not going right.

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Saturday, Oct. 18, 2003, 1:26 p.m.

Its the end of exams...not feeling good about the impending results to come. Hope that I'll pass my overall with at least a 60. This year is so dissapointing. My grades are slowly going down. Must buck up next year to go to JC or poly. But now, its just time to relax, chill out and destress.

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